everybody hurts sometimes

Thursday, 09/01/16, 8:50am

I am grumpy this morning. But it is an ok grumpy. It is not tainted with depression right now. Somehow, the knowledge of being "normal grumpy" puts me in a much better mood.

We all were awoken early this morning with RG complaining of a headache. It probably took me too long to finally get out of bed after he first started trying to wake me up, asking for ibuprofen. So the complaining probably got louder for everyone else. It didn't help that Buddy the cat started attacking Nasser's and my toes, sticking out from under the covers.

The day is overcast and a little cool, but I like that, considering my grumpiness. I can't seem to talk myself into getting in the shower, because I'm grumpy and cold. Of course that would probably help the most with the grumpiness and chill.

Short post today, still trying to cut myself slack right now, like it was suggested in therapy.

slow down, you move too fast

Saturday, 03/05/16, 8:44am

I am grumpy today. I wish I wasn't.

We actually just had a wonderful couple of days. Thursday afternoon, I dropped the boys off with my parents, and Nasser and I headed up to Breckenridge with some of his co-workers. Yesterday was the annual work ski day for Nasser which I was finally joining for the first time. It was really great.

But.

Late morning yesterday, after several fast, adrenaline pumping runs, I wanted to get a little faster. And I did. But at 45mph, I got outta control and took a fall. I'm really lucky, all things considered, that I didn't get seriously injured. And of course, this was in a wide open area with no trees. My skis popped off pretty quickly but then I slid on the left side of my body until coming to a stop.

My leg has a nasty bruise on the underside, above my knee, but the painful area is a bit larger even than the bruise. Sitting with that leg resting on a chair hurts. My left arm is also not feeling good. It hurts to fully straighten the elbow, and my upper arm feels like it took a strong beating on the fall.

I don't think there's anything really serious wrong, but I'm going to be paying a lot of attention to the elbow and maybe going in to get it x-rayed this week, if needed. This morning I was all excited to have planned a run with some fellow runner friends in the area, but I had to back out because of the pain.

I'm grumpy because I didn't run. I'm grumpy because of the pain. I'm grumpy that I was so stupid to have pushed the speed yesterday. I'm grumpy that I can't sleep on either side. I'm grumpy that I'm grumpy.